Ponderings From My Journal

“If you would have asked me years ago what I would be doing, the last thing I would have said, was a market place ministry, a ministry of hanging out!! Of listening, encouraging, exhorting others!

Not preaching!! But being who I am in Y’Shua.

It is amazing the number of people, young and old, who just want someone to listen! Hopefully my life reflects a relationship, not religion. Hopefully I am reflecting the life I have in Y’Shua.

I could stay in my apartment, to write, etc … but that is not who I am! When I am out, in the marketplace, in a coffee shop, I know I am where I am supposed to be! To write, to listen, to encourage young and old and in so doing, I too am revived because my focus is not on me, it is on others, to observe, to listen, to lift others up!!

In a coffee shop, you overhear conversations, not because you want to, yet those very conversations I can lift to the Father, I don’t have to go to them. I can in my heart and mind lift it to the Father as He leads me too. Putting it into His hands. Hopefully this makes sense to those that are reading this!

For about nine years, I, along with eight others wrote columns for Crossmap. We did not know that everything that we wrote was sent to all the major countries in the world where they had offices! I have copies of my columns that are in French, German, Russian, Portuguese, Greek, Hebrew, Chinese, Spanish, Japanese, etc. I did not get to travel to different countries as my children did, but with my hands on the keyboard, I was able to do so, I never saw this coming!!

The Father will use the gifts and talents He has given us. For me, it was the heart of a ready writer!! Hopefully I can be a pen in His hand, reflecting the reality of a relationship with Him. Faith is a relationship, a walk, day by day, literally one day at a time! Each day a new start, new beginning, fresh mana, new words for the day!!

So now, at 03:10 in the morning, these thoughts are on my heart, that the Father has had me to write down to remind me that this is what He has called me too! That it is about Him and I get to be part of it. How about that!!


Aka The Mayor

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Carpe Diem

​Just sitting here at my desk this evening comptemplating the events of the day.
Taking it easy,  thinking about my friend Chad’s post to the Joshua’s Men’s group that I am part of and it was spot on! The title of the article was called “Carpe Diem”  which means to “Seize The Moment.”
What an awesome word,  to seize the moments that are given to us,  for that moment may never come again,  likely to not be repeated!
We don’t want to lose those moments! We need to write them on our hearts so that we don’t forget them.  Some to share,  some to hold deeply within, treasures to look back on and to say “Ah, Father,  thank you for these moments that you have given us!”
My brother,  my fellow servant,  Chad,  with his post,  stirred up so many “Cape Diem” moments in my life.  That I was able to look back and look within and give thanks for those times that I did seize those moments and the Father open doors, such as the move back to Texas.
Let us seize the day,  those moments that have been given to us and let us release it so we can move forward in the moment and time that we are in.
That in doing so,  we touch the hearts of others.  As we open ours,  others will see that hope,  that rest,  that peace we have as we walk with the Father,  with Y’shua, our Savior, being lead by the Holy Spirit, to seize the day, to seize the moment!!
Cape Diem family and friends, seize the day, the moments you have been given!

Aka The Mayor/PDiddy

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It is Amazing!

SittingTheMayorTheRevExpresso here at The Rev, the thought “It is good to dwell in the House of The Lord, to dwell in His presence” kept going through my mind and then I realized that the Lord was speaking about the here and now, right here in The Rev, I was dwelling in His presence. That we were enjoying the company of each other! It was the same thought He gave me years ago, at Starbucks, in Kennesaw, when I first moved to Georgia in 2004

What a thought!

To realize that where ever we go, we are in His presence. That we can walk in that relationship with Him. That He makes His word alive within. Writing them upon our hearts and allowing us to share with others.

That it is more than just Sunday and Wednesday. It is living daily in the Lord and realizing that He has given us His Spirit to do so.

It seems to me, the more that we press into the Lord the simpler it becomes. That we are really learning to live daily with the Lord!  He has called us to be living epistles, written on by His hand, molded and shaped to reflect the reality of the inworking of the Holy Spirit.

We are daily being conformed to His image by the things that we go through, that we experience in life, even the dark nights of the soul and He gives us the strength to walk in Him. He has already prepared the way, even when we do not see it with the natural eye, we walk by faith, walking in the strength and might of Lord.

He has given us the answer and it is not as complicated as we think!

He says “Come, dwell in me and I will dwell in you and we will be one.”

Is that not awesome? We can dwell in the presence of the most High and we will never be the same as He mold us into living epistles, written on by the Lord, read by others and the fragrance they smell, will be the fragrance of Jesus, that when He is lifted up in our lives. It will draw others to Him, because of what He has done in us!

Till later,


Paul E. Dawn Jr.
Writing for the King
Hill Country Thoughts
A Coffee Cup Ministry

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You Are Unique, You Really Are!!

Writing LampSometimes it is just nice to do nothing, to just enjoy everything around you! A time of relaxing and catching up with my friends and fellow bloggers/writers online, to see how things are going.

I am so blessed by the many friends that Y’Shua has given me through Hill Country Thoughts over the years. I never know what I will experience as I visit each one. I am always touched as I visit, as different ones share their thoughts, their ideas, their hopes, their dreams, their hurts and wounds, often vulnerable but yet sharing from the heart. I may leave with tears in my eyes, or a rejoicing heart.

We have been given such an awesome tool in the Internet, to be used, a chance to be real and honest, vulnerable at times. It is the honesty and the openness that draws others, because what is shared is shared from the heart, out of what they have experienced in their lives.

One of the things that really amazes me is that a number of times, is the way that various bloggers/writers will post their thoughts and often times , it goes along with what I am sharing and none of us had read what they other had posted to their site.

One of the main themes I have always talked about, is the fact, that often times we may think why share this, it won’t mean a thing, when it is the very thing someone who is blogging or surfing by needs to read, to hear in their hearts and when they do, it gives them hope, it plants a seed that someone else might water and another harvest.

That is why I encourage you my friends, don’t be weary in blogging, in writing, maybe not every day, but know, that even when you don’t “get comments” you may be touching lives that you will never know about this side of heaven.

I just really felt to post this today, to let you know, that what you write, what you share is very important, it touches the hearts of others.

Allow Y’Shua to use you, even when you “don’t see results” for our purpose is to encourage, exhort, lift up one another. To listen, to be there as we blog by those that are on our hearts.

Each one of you my friends are unique, one of a kind and only you can share what you share because you are sharing from your heart. Allow Y’Shua, allow others to be encouraged by sharing what He has written upon your heart. Stir up the gifts He has given you, use them to bless others.

Be blessed my blogging/writing friends, my fellow surfers. May you find in what you read here in at Hill Country Thoughts or elsewhere, that which will draw you closer to the Y’Shua and give you hope as you walk this pathway, called life.

Till later,


Note: Y’Shua, the Hebrew name of our Savior

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Nothing Wasted!

Nothing Wasted!

It is really good to get out of the apartment. The portable oxygen makes it nice. This will be a temporary thing, while they continue to check things to see how I do over the next month. Just have to use it when I am out and about. While settTheMayor2015_opting at the coffee shop, I can turn if off, only when I am active, on the road, shopping, etc and while sleeping at night.

For a little while I was frustrated that it was going to be one more thing, to slow me down. The machine at the apartment, I use all night. Been getting full nights of rest. It takes the air and extracts oxygen for me to breath.

I am thankful for each breath and for each day the Father gives me and for the opportunities that I have to be out and about in the marketplace, in the coffee shops, of hoping that I am able to exhort, encourage others, as they move forward in this walk of life. And I hope and pray family and friends, that I can always be a source of encouragement to you, even though the things that I go through at times.

I know that none of it is wasted and that hopefully again, you will receive encouragement, blessings as I walk one day at a time with The Father and the Son, I am blessed with awesome children, grand-children, with my brothers and sister and mother, with friends, thank you all for being there. You all are greatly loved and appreciated!

For all my writing friends continue to put pen to paper, hands to keyboard and to express what has been written on your hearts, for others need that very thing that is being birthed within, that will touch their hearts, and released them to move forward.

Writing from the Heart,

aka The Mayor

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Pondering Thoughts At The Rev

TheMayor@TheRevWell, it is afternoon now, has been good to be here, to see so many friends, The Rev has been packed on and off since it opened. Visited with some friends and as I look out among all my fellow coffee/tea/latte drinkers, I wonder what stories they have to tell! You hear a lot conversations, but you can’t always make them out. A lot of communication going on. Coffee Shops are a crossroad of people, young and old, interacting, living life and some times, if I am blessed, and I am many times, I get the privilege of listening to some of their stories and stand amazed.

For I am the one that comes away blessed, to have listen, to encourage, to be there when needed and I know that when I am in the market place, in the place the Father wants me, as a writer, an exhorter and encourager to others, to know that He has allowed me to travel the world with the pen and the keyboard, that the things He has had me to write, be posted in many other countries by Crossmap, in such languages as Russian, Greek, Hebrew, Portuguese, Japanese, German, French, etc!

I didn’t even know at the beginning that they were being posted to other sites, and to see the number of times they have been read has amazed me, I will never know who they touched this side of heaven, but I know the Father used it for His glory and that is all that matters, for it is about Him, about our Savior, and maybe someday I will meet those who read them.

Our Father will use the gifts that He has given us, if we let Him and we all have gifts of various kinds, too many to list. Just give what you have to Him and let Him use it, in the yielding, we let go and let the Holy Spirit guide us! And that should encourage us even more as we press in and press on in what He has sat before us this day!

What has He set before you?


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Damn Tired

Camera2-2015-03-13-03-20-23.jpgI am so damn tired of the pain! It never goes away and it seems like pain meds do not work like they should! I am ok spiritually, etc, it is the physical part and it has been like this since 2003 after all the chemo, radiation, surgeries, the pain never, ever goes away! So tired of all the meds I take. It seems all they do is dull the pain but the side effects of tiredness, drowsiness is old!

I have a lot of friends who go through the same thing because of various illnesses. Most people only see the outward, they do not see inward effects of their illnesses, the result of the treatments and medication and so the judge by what they see but they do not know the battle that goes on from deliberating pain that never, ever goes away!

Please be careful with what you say because of what you “see.” Don’t be so quick to judge, A lot of what you see! A lot it has to do with the treatments, meds that we take, the side effects of many of them. Each person is different and what they, what we need is encouragement, prayer, understanding, not judgment.

Pain is a real battle and if it wasn’t for my faith, my family and friends and the doctors and surgeons, the medical people at the Kerrville VAMC and at the Audie Murphy VAMC and University of Texas Medical Center and Cancer Treatment Center, In San Antonio, all through the VA I would not be here.

Each day is a gift, a challenge and the only I make it through the day is knowing that the Father is with me 24 hours a day, even in the midst of pain, I still have that thread and believe me, I am holding on tight to His hands!



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